Hey Joe

Well today has been a long long day. I missed school because Adalyn is sick, she has had a high fever off and on and has an ear infection. She has done nothing but sleep all day. And did I use this time to my benefit? Not really, I took a long nap with her, worked on some homework and that is IT. I'm such a bum. I haven't ate today though, which isn't good really lol. It's prbably worse than overeating. 651 Adalyn say3s hi! She is starting to feel better, YAY!

No new plans or anything. I think I'm going to make an extremely unhealthy dinner, 0mashed potatoes, gravy and fried chicken and maybe throw in some hush puppies. I really am not even in the mood to cook.

I did some skills yesterday, PASSED, whoo hoo. Will be doing more tomorrow! Have to insert cath, apply warm and cold pack, administer a soap suds enema and then I think I will be finished. Yesterday I placed an NG tube, trache care, and suctioning. Fun fun! Can't wait for the end of the year for me to be an LPN and get into RN school!

Working on getting my credit better, which right now it's about 635-685 which probably for my age isn't too bad. Paying of a credit card I had when I was a teenager. Yeah, I know I should have had it done a long time ago. That's really all that is negative on my credit so I'll have it paid of next month, it'll still be on my credit but it will at least make it a little better.

So I'm going to get started on dinner, finish cleaning the house and maybe I'll manage to work out. I also have quite a bit of studying to do still since I've been a bum today. Never managed to get my granny gear on today, I feel lost!!

AH!

So I'm thinking about how much I have going on right now. I've narrowed it down to about three major things going on; planning a wedding, nursing school, and losing weight. Only one is working out perfectly for me! Who would guess nursing school is probably the easiest thing I've done? Loving it.

I mentioned a few posts before about receiving my wedding invitations that were not done right. I took them to tech to have them fix it, and they misspelt three words.
Which now leaves me with approximately 200 invitations I can't use. haha. So a nurse I work with fixed them, I hope, I haven't seen them but at this point I really don't care?! She is sending them out for me, whew, what a relief. I was wanting to get them out mid January. I'm not too late, but I was beginning to feel a little panicky. I still haven't figured out table settings or anything like that. I still have a ton to get together. Lord help me.

I'm pretty sure I have a food addiction. Just curious how you fix that. Is there rehab? I may need it.
I really, USUALLY, don't even overeat. My BIGGEST problem is that when I was younger I would completely starve myself. I don't eat consistently. Sometimes I go with eating one meal a day and nothing else. I counted my calories for awhile and realized I GENERALLY do not even going over the 1200 and if I do it's pop, which I'm working on cutting out completely. Trying to quit with the empty calories. It's rough lol. Still wearing my grandma gear though, feels good actually.

Reflect~
1. Nursing school is a breeze.
2. Wedding planning advice: Think very hard before picking your bridesmaids (this I learnt back in December), hire a wedding planner, just when you think you may be finished, you're not.
3. My name is Charli, and my addiction is food.
4. I feel best when I'm in my granny gear.

Weekends made me fat.

I hate them! I work sat and sun 12 hours and it's the longest two days EVER! And what do you do when you're bored, in a hurry, tired...? Eat, eat fast, eat junk. This is why nurses gain so much weight. You devour your food because as soon as you get it, everyone is going to need SOMETHING. Lol. I did alright yesterday. Until the pizza came. Lol muh weakness!

So today I'm bringing my breakfast lunch and snack. Light yogurt for breakfast, strawberry of course. Apples and grapes for snacks and 1 ham and cheese hot pocket. 3 bottles of water.

I am drinking two cups of coffee with milk and sugar before work. And as soon as I finish blow drying my hair I'll do some quick work outs. Wish me lots of luck!

I've also started wearing support Jose and slimming cami. SUPPOSEDLY it's suppose to help tone and prevent varicose veins and spider veins and all that jazz. Today is day 2 of that thing. After the first hour, I can breathe and it is kinda comfy. So we will see. Hope everyone has a nice Sunday while I'm slaving away! =) pic of me this morning and my plan for the day.

Nothing much has been going on here lately still not doing well on diet. Making tiny progress I think but nothing fantastic. I've actually been drinking more water but still not as much as I should. Contemplating quitting my job. Which I have been doing but I'm thinking it's time to go through with it. It'll help decrease unnecessary stress but add a little more. When I start clinicals though it'll be really hard to work and do school work. Blah I'm not really sure what I should do.

March is rapidly approaching, can't wait! =)

So I'm going to get some work done and after class I've gotta get groceries and stuff for home then I'm going to work out some and study.

Gotta get into the groove of working out regularly. Really feels good it's just motivating myself to do it. My life just feels so hectic if I have 30 minutes free I just wanna sit back and take a deep breath and relax. It'll all work out though. Guess who got into a pair of jeans she couldn't get into for awhile? That's right, me!

Wedding invites!

Came in last Friday! Was so excited! I tore open the box like I was 6years old on Christmas! I read them and loved them until it occurred to me a LOT of words were missing! When I set them up it showed all words in there correctly so I didn't know I had to type in the "with their families" blah blah I thought I just typed in our info and ordered! So I got a 100 invitation that just said "Charli josh Saturday march 17 2012" and thn the address of the place. FOR REAL?!

Luckily Josh took the printing class here at tech and is close with the teacher and he is going to fix them for us! Whew! For only $20 which is awesoooome!

So a month ago or so I filled out a card at the mall close by for a trip to Branson Mo and last night they called and said I won! Which I never do and even if they say I did I usually think its a scam and hang up. So I'm hoping it's NOT a scam! So there's our honeymoon! Three nights, free movies and breakfast and another getaway free at any 92 locations for 110.00$ so hopefully it's not a scam!!

Wedding is quickly approaching! I feel super overwhelmed with wedding plans and school. Can't wait to finally marry the man of my dreams though =) it'll be so worth it!

My work out plans have totally failed yet again but today is a new day, for the millionth time. Haha! I've got this!! Thinking about joining weight watchers...

*has anyone else ordered invitations to find them wrong like I did?
*Has anyone won a legit trip or are they all scams?
*opinions on weight watchers??

Day 1

So not yesterday, but the day before I finally did a little work out. I have a bike thing and used that for maybe 15 min and sat on the floor in front of it and used my hands in the petals for maybe 10 minutes. I did 25 or 35 sit ups (i already can't remember) I started to do some yoga but my kids were determined to keep me from that!!

So yesterday I had all intentions in working out again, but I couldn't stop cleaning! So I guess that could kinda count, right? But the point is is I felt so good that I wanted to clean and get what needed done done instead of dragging myself from one place to another. So maybe I'm on a roll haha I'm GOING to work out when I get home and I'm going to clean afterwards and do good.

Unfortunatly I forgot my water in my sons back pack and so I got a pop at school. Free refills all day compared to buying several bottles of water all day... I'm cheap what can I say. So day 1, again, of no pop starts tomorrow!!

Wedding in 64 days! Maybe 63 now, haha something like that either way I've gotta get in shape!!

Any advice would be great =)

All the world is a stage, and all the men and women merely players

In a poetic kind of mood today. So it's day 11 in year 2012 and my diet plans have continued to fail miserably. Today is a new day, yet again. Start out the day with some orange juice. I brought peanuts and Cheerios to help keep metabolism going and hopefully suppress hunger and craving for junk food. I've felt so exhausted lately just can't seem to get motivated. My baby girl was up all night not feeling well so today will probably be very long!

Going to take my test on nutrition today, hope I make a good grade! Have to write a paper on legal issues in nursing, think I'll write over HIPPA.

Should start clinicals in February!

After I pick up my baby from my grandmas I'm going to go home and work out some. Start out with yoga, then move on to some other stuff. I think it will help boost energy! Hopefully! I took my test and made an 80 which isn't that good. So frustrating I went from making almost all 100s to making 80s =/ Eeep!

Went to hobby Lobby Monday for wedding stuff, only bought a bag for school books though. Haha. I am too overwhelmed with the wedding stuff! Hope to figure it soon, only have 65 more days! Can't wait. Any ideas on decorations and stuff? There is a bridesmaid in the dress. The color is apple red. I really like vintage stuff and damask =)

Wedding plans

 

That's me in my dress, and the invitations we ordered, lol not good pictures!

I've finally ordered wedding invitations which is really exciting!
So I've worked all weekend and it's worn me out. I'm really ready to be done with school and get a new job that I love and make better money doing. Not too much longer! It's exciting thinking I'm going to be married in a couple of months, and finished with school the end of this year. Not quite finished since I do plan on going to RN school as well. But closer!

My diet plan has not gone as planned. I'm going to try harder and work out something else, smaller more reasonable goals, not be so hard on myself, and I'm going to start taking pictures of my self and hoping it motivates me some. One of the PAs I work with said I look like I had been losing weight to her, I think she is crazy personally because I'm pretty sure I've gained, but that made me feel way better and more motivated. So here is my plan, which I probably won't go by but I'm going to try my best!
1. Smaller reasonable goals. I can't lose 60 lbs over night. Or in a week.
2. I'm going to make out a monthly schedule of all our meals, and start bringing lunch to work and school. This I'm hoping will help not only my weight and eating habits, but also help financially and help relieve some stress.
3. 30 minutes a day to work out. I want to try to get up early, but right now I just don't feel like that is very possible, small baby steps! I'm going to work out after I get out of class for 30 minutes. Or maybe even during lunch break.
4. SNACKS! I don't usually buy snacks, but I have trouble with hypoglycemia sometimes, so if I keep around good healthy snacks, fruits and veggies and nuts, that will maybe help me maintain a proper blood sugar, suppress hunger for EMPTY CARBS, which is what gets me! (SODA)
5. Drink Orange juice instead of POP, and work on drinking at least the recommended 8 oz of water.

Whew I'm already worn out just from thinking of all the things I should do! Small baby steps is what I keep telling myself, but I also need to just DO IT. Well that is all, I'll post more tomorrow maybe. A couple girls and I are going to go to Hobby Lobby for some more wedding shopping tomorrow evening, so I'm sure I'll have lots to say! =)

Homesick

I'm homesick! I miss Missouri so much and am tired of all the ridiculous drama here. I just feel like it would be 100% beneficial in every aspect if we did move. However, I'm in nursing school and so I need to finish that first then talk Josh into it! I would just like a fresh start, and it's like Josh and I are 100% honest and we each know everything about the others past yet people want to bring stuff up from 5 years ago that doesn't even matter. It makes no sense, =/. I feel like everyone is against us...

Anyhow today was day 1 of my diet, again, that I failed. Haha. It hasn't been the greatest of days today but tomorrow is a new day and I'm looking forward to my new healthy improved lifestyle. By this time next year, I'll be a wife for almost a year, a nurse and 60 pounds less. What more could I ask for?

My dream

So this is a little weird and crazy and I wanted to blog it before I forget it all! Last night I had a dream that Jesus came down to visit me and talk about everything and I asked him do many questions. Then my cousin and uncle were on their way up here because Jesus was going to let us visit with my cousin that passed away in 2003. It was a crazy calming dream. If that makes any sense at all. I feel like He was really talking to me and telling me things I needed to hear. I feel really good this morning.

So much to do

So little time. No idea how to manage and instead of getting done what needs done I end up just running around panicking because of all I have to do. I'm so thankful Josh came into our lives when he did, he makes it
So much easier, yet I still feel freaked out about getting everything done. It's rough with the kids running around all over me, tearing up my perfectly clean house after I just made it perfect, cooking dinner when I finally finish dishes. Idk seems like I never get a break and if I do I'm still panicking about what needs to be done. And right now all I can think about is how I have to get in gear with the wedding planning because it's coming up really soon and I really have nothing together but dresses and a place. I feel so alone in the wedding planning right now and my family drives me crazy for numerous reasons. I'm just ready to have our wedding, and get to a normal, well as normal as normal can be when you're in nursing school, ao that all I have to worry about is keeping my grades up and getting through school. Ahhh!! Just want to scream and cry at once. I feel so beat right now. Bleh. Praying for peace, patience, and guidance. That's it for now, back to wound care and juggling motherhood.

Introduction

Hello there! I'm blogging today just because I really am avoiding writing this article review over professionalism in nursing. =) I'm a mother of two amazing kids and soon to be married to the most amazing man I've ever met, I can't wait! March is the big month for me. =) I'm also in LPN school right now. My life is pretty hectic and ALWAYS busy. It seems rare to sit and breathe, so maybe blogging can be a way to take a few minutes from life and just express it all out through words. Between work, school, kids, and putting together a wedding, I may not find time to blog every single day but I'll try my best!
It's hard to believe it's already January 2012. I remember being younger and thinking I would never grow up and have a life of my own and be heading toward a career I love. I never thought I'd go to bed with the man of my dreams every night. It's an amazing feeling having life in your hands and just being able to smile and mold it how you wish. It's sad that not everyone feels that way, I've always been a firm believer in life is what you make of it. =) Anyways its a new year, new beginnings and New Years Resolutions and I figured I'd add some of mine just like I'm sure everyone else does, and my best friend and MOH did hehe
1. Loose weight. 60 lbs to be exact!
2. Eat healthy. I want to cut out red meat, stop drinking pop, and eating healthier things. But my favorite foods are the worse for you, we will see how it goes.
3. Be a better mother to my kids
4. Be as incredible to my soon to be husband as he is to me.
5. Make straight A's!
6. Pass state boards
I think that is it right now. I want to help people in need. and make a difference in someones life. I think that also kind of goes to finishing school in nursing career though. I hope I make an amazing nurse. Anyways, I better get to this paper! Hope I haven't bored you too much!