Hitting rock bottom

Well as you all know (or just Kadee) I received my bodybyvi package and was really excited about it. However, the shakes I made... tasted fine, but was way too sweet for me. Yes, that's right. Too sweet for the fat girl. Who would have thought. My first shake I used ice, v8 strawberry banana juice. Couldn't handle that. SO then I made another shake. Peanut butter, almond milk, ice. It was delicious, but as I would swallow the sweetness would just hit me hard and I couldn't hardly get any down. Apparently, no one really begins liking healthy stuff, but you have to keep with it to like it. But, I've finally realized that I'm just very spoiled in my own way. If I don't like it, I won't eat it, get it, do it. Lol This is ridiculous so right now I'm really working on this. I'm going to make another shake tomorrow. Probably with peanut butter again.

SO I have some crazy news!! I'm at an EXTREMELY high risk for HEART ATTACK. My cholesterol was checked and my Total cholesterol is 301. It should be BELOW 200. My bad Cholesterol LDL- 218, again, below 100. HDL (GOOD CHOLESTEROL) was 48, which is low. My PCP put me on choleterol medication and told me that this is hereditary, with me being 22 years old and it being THAT high, it wasn't my diet that was making it that high. That doesn't mean I don't need to change my eating habits though, just that if i were to change my eating habits it wouldn't make it that much better. It's really scary. I've been kind of blown away by it I guess. It's a lot to grasp that at 22 years old I'm at a greater risk to have a heart attack than alot of people much older. It's really opened my eyes a lot. I keep thinking about how unhealthy I am NOW, I can't imagine what I'm going to be like as I get older, and if I continue with the lifestyle I have now. I've been paying a lot more attention to what I eat. Have I cut out all the bad stuff completely? No, I'm working on it though. Baby steps. I'll get there. I've got to get there. For my babies if not for myself.

So enough about that, I just wanted to share that this is my hitting bottom. This is my coming to realization that i NEED to become healthy and get with it before I do too much damage. It's been really stressful and has made my anxiety a little higher than normal. I'm confident it'll get better. Labs will be rechecked in 8 weeks.

School is going good. I was on wound cart last monday and I absolutely loved it. It was so fascinating and neat to see all the big wounds that won't heal well, some becoming necrotic, some being graft, and some beginning to heal. Very very neat! NEED to take a hematology test, which should be fairly easy!

How has your month been?
Do you have any significant lab values, did they make you open your eyes? If not, what did?