It Never Really Ends

I haven't wrote in a very long time! There was too much in nursing school to even gather thoughts to put into words for a blog. I loved it but was so happy to just be finished! I am now an LPN and have been since July 2013. I have been working in a pediatric urgent care/clinic and have greatly enjoyed being here. I love [most] of my patients and co-workers.. I have also learnt so much being here!!

I am ready to further my education and degree as a nurse and plan to begin RN school hopefully this time next year! (Sooner would be better but you know!) I am also contemplating Nurse Practitioner school once I've completed RN. So as the title of my post reads, "It Never Really Ends", because it really doesn't. I love going to school and learning though so that's a plus =)

As far as working on being healthy... 

Check my next post! I'll probably post periodically here about my weightloss journey and just work. Funny things kids say/do, crazy things parents say/do. Seriously, I could probably go on and on!

I work out!

For the past two weeks or so I have been getting up at 4 am and meeting a health nut friend of mine at the gym at 5 am. I'm loving it! At first I really had to push myself to go. She would be like hey going to the gym are you coming? And my thought is "no I really would rather stay comfy at home" but instead I would reply with "sure". Now I feel like I'm becoming addicted! I was unable to go Sunday morning because my daughter was sick and it literally drove me
Insane that I didn't go to the gym. This is a big deal for me! So one day we will work out our upper body by using weights and some other machine things, the next day we do legs with weights, chest/back and then cardio. My favorite is legs for some reason, even though I hate squats. But I do them! We do 4-5 rounds of everything it generally takes about an hour. My friend is so supportive and motivating I don't know what I'd do without her (other than be a fat sloth). So I'm really excited I've went out an bought a really cute gym bag for mornings we work after the gym. ( we
Work at a hospital and have to be there at 645 so some mornings we shower at the gym).

Once I finish the workout and
I head home, or to work, I scramble and cook two eggs in the microwave and have whole wheat toast and a glass of orange juice. I've cut back on a lot of what I eat and how I eat. I'm trying to eat more veggies and fruit and I'm eventually hoping to cut
Out all red meat, since I have extrememly high cholesterol. So I've been cooking with turkey instead and the best part is my family hasn't even noticed the difference!

It's only been two weeks or so but I'm very happy and proud and I'm loving it so I'm pretty sure I will  be sticking to this. Life happens though and I am still in nursing school, although I'm nearly done. I've lost approximately three pounds already and I plan to reach my goal of losing 30 by the end of July.

I'm ready to make being healthy a part of my life and my family's. I need to do this not just for me but for them as well.

YAY!!

I work out!

For the past two weeks or so I have been getting up at 4 am and meeting a health nut friend of mine at the gym at 5 am. I'm loving it! At first I really had to push myself to go. She would be like hey going to the gym are you coming? And my thought is "no I really would rather stay comfy at home" but instead I would reply with "sure". Now I feel like I'm becoming addicted! I was unable to go Sunday morning because my daughter was sick and it literally drove me
Insane that I didn't go to the gym. This is a big deal for me! So one day we will work out our upper body by using weights and some other machine things, the next day we do legs with weights, chest/back and then cardio. My favorite is legs for some reason, even though I hate squats. But I do them! We do 4-5 rounds of everything it generally takes about an hour. My friend is so supportive and motivating I don't know what I'd do without her (other than be a fat sloth). So I'm really excited I've went out an bought a really cute gym bag for mornings we work after the gym. ( we
Work at a hospital and have to be there at 645 so some mornings we shower at the gym).

Once I finish the workout and
I head home, or to work, I scramble and cook two eggs in the microwave and have whole wheat toast and a glass of orange juice. I've cut back on a lot of what I eat and how I eat. I'm trying to eat more veggies and fruit and I'm eventually hoping to cut
Out all red meat, since I have extrememly high cholesterol. So I've been cooking with turkey instead and the best part is my family hasn't even noticed the difference!

It's only been two weeks or so but I'm very happy and proud and I'm loving it so I'm pretty sure I will  be sticking to this. Life happens though and I am still in nursing school, although I'm nearly done. I've lost approximately three pounds already and I plan to reach my goal of losing 30 by the end of July.

I'm ready to make being healthy a part of my life and my family's. I need to do this not just for me but for them as well.

YAY!!

Trials In Life

I'm not very good at keeping up with these things. My healthy lifestyle change has not worked out too well for me either. I said before, I have a problem. I like food. I'm so busy too it's really hard to keep up with eating in general, then to try to eat right is just adding to the nightmare.

I actually have gone running a couple times at the track. I do a lot better outside than I do on a treadmill. I'm not sure if anyone else shares this or not but I feel less insecure that way, and apparently I'm good and sprinting better than running distance. I amazed my friend, who is a die hard runner/healthy eater... You know what they say, opposites attract. I'm addicted to food and reading, she's addicted to being healthy. Poor girl.

So the greatest news I have is that I'm graduating this month! On the 13th to be exact. For those who don't know, I'm in Nursing school. I'm in practical nursing school and plan on bridging to the RN program as soon as I'm finished. I'm really excited to finally be reaching the end of this journy in my life. THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!!!! I use to think I would NEVER get in to nursing school, that it would always be a goal, a dream, a desire, but never a reality.. Then I began this class and thought, wait a sec, why was I so insane to want this torture? No really, it's not been too bad. There are moments... but overall it's not bad. Then I wondered if I would EVER get the crap out of here. And now here I am.

Is it silly to be so proud of yourself? I feel like I have accomplished a lot. I wish I had accomplished these things sooner, but there are still people older than me with no accomplishments. I have a lot to be thankful for. I had my first child when I was 15. I worked hard. I never gave up. I wanted so badly to succeed in life. Not just for me, not only to prove everyone wrong about being a typical teen mom, but I wanted to succeed in life for my son. I didn't want my son to struggle, or me to struggle for the rest of our lives. I want more than anything for my children to be proud of their mother. To be able to look back and say, yeah, my mom made mistakes but she was a hard worker, determined to give us the best life she could, despite the obstacles. I would also want my children to be just as determined. To work hard, never give up. Always dream and always work towards that goal. No matter what.

I would also like to say to you; never give up. NOTHING IN LIFE WORTH DOING IS EASY. What is the satisfaction of completing something that was not challenging anyhow? Stay focused. Don't be afraid to dream. Most importantly don't be afraid to go after those dreams. The only thing holding you back is yourself. Trust me, no matter how impossible things may seem, you can do it. I went through the most impossible situations. I missed out on a ton of things. Sacrifice is a part of it.

I wish you all luck. If you need anything feel free to comment.
Anything you guys want to share, accomplishements, fears, anything.

Hitting rock bottom

Well as you all know (or just Kadee) I received my bodybyvi package and was really excited about it. However, the shakes I made... tasted fine, but was way too sweet for me. Yes, that's right. Too sweet for the fat girl. Who would have thought. My first shake I used ice, v8 strawberry banana juice. Couldn't handle that. SO then I made another shake. Peanut butter, almond milk, ice. It was delicious, but as I would swallow the sweetness would just hit me hard and I couldn't hardly get any down. Apparently, no one really begins liking healthy stuff, but you have to keep with it to like it. But, I've finally realized that I'm just very spoiled in my own way. If I don't like it, I won't eat it, get it, do it. Lol This is ridiculous so right now I'm really working on this. I'm going to make another shake tomorrow. Probably with peanut butter again.

SO I have some crazy news!! I'm at an EXTREMELY high risk for HEART ATTACK. My cholesterol was checked and my Total cholesterol is 301. It should be BELOW 200. My bad Cholesterol LDL- 218, again, below 100. HDL (GOOD CHOLESTEROL) was 48, which is low. My PCP put me on choleterol medication and told me that this is hereditary, with me being 22 years old and it being THAT high, it wasn't my diet that was making it that high. That doesn't mean I don't need to change my eating habits though, just that if i were to change my eating habits it wouldn't make it that much better. It's really scary. I've been kind of blown away by it I guess. It's a lot to grasp that at 22 years old I'm at a greater risk to have a heart attack than alot of people much older. It's really opened my eyes a lot. I keep thinking about how unhealthy I am NOW, I can't imagine what I'm going to be like as I get older, and if I continue with the lifestyle I have now. I've been paying a lot more attention to what I eat. Have I cut out all the bad stuff completely? No, I'm working on it though. Baby steps. I'll get there. I've got to get there. For my babies if not for myself.

So enough about that, I just wanted to share that this is my hitting bottom. This is my coming to realization that i NEED to become healthy and get with it before I do too much damage. It's been really stressful and has made my anxiety a little higher than normal. I'm confident it'll get better. Labs will be rechecked in 8 weeks.

School is going good. I was on wound cart last monday and I absolutely loved it. It was so fascinating and neat to see all the big wounds that won't heal well, some becoming necrotic, some being graft, and some beginning to heal. Very very neat! NEED to take a hematology test, which should be fairly easy!

How has your month been?
Do you have any significant lab values, did they make you open your eyes? If not, what did?

Body by vi

Got my shake mix stuff today from body by vi! Here's a pic! I'm not starting until tomorrow morning and I'll post more about how I like it and mix it. There's a ton of ways to mix it the way you would enjoy it! I can't wait to get started! For more info go to http://katyk.bodybyvi.com